Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Hello again.

I am revisiting my blog to see if I can keep it up.  So much is happening to me that I want to chronicle.
Like what I ate for lunch today was a great peasants lunch.

But really we are starting the process of developing the land we live on.  I am learning a lot and want to keep track of the progress so I figured that this  would be a great place to do that.

I am working with the city now to get our property approved to move forward to the subdivision stage. Just with the little I have worked with our government leaves me frustrated and irritated.  It is slow, silly and selfish.  Meaning the city is selfish not me of course.  I guess a city should look out for their own interests but it is frustrating that they hold all the control over property that isn't theirs.  Do we ever really own anything anyways?

Please remember when I say our land I really mean my mother-in-laws land but we told her we would take on the headache for her.
Please remember when I say "we" I mean mostly me.  Clint is working 2 jobs so this is my adventure to tackle.  Not that Clint isn't helping just that I am lead on this.

I have hired an engineer and surveying the property is finished.  I need to evaluate a water drain/underground river before anything else can move forward so right now things are at a stand still which is frustrating.

I have had lots of thoughts bouncing around and some great experiences I would love to share and document so hopefully I get get them all down.


Monday, November 4, 2013

Adults should be really grateful that....

You can flush the toilet every time you use it.

Seriously.  It is a treat to be able to flush the toilet.  It is so fun!  I didn't realize it until I started getting in trouble every day for accidentally flushing the toilet for Scarlett.

It's the simple things.

Happy November everyone.  It is the month that reminds us to be thankful so I hope that flushing the toilet is on your list.  More than the fun of it plumbing is pretty great.

I was sad to see October go but November has a great feeling all it's own.


Tuesday, October 15, 2013

I quit my paying job to work much harder without pay.

Today marks one year since my father-in-laws death.  I can't believe it has been a year and yet there is a a bit of relief with it.  A lot of things have changed in my life since his death and most of those changes are because of it.

I quit my job at the beginning of September.  I am not a working mom anymore.  I worked for my father-in-laws company.  This last year at work has been really hard without him.  I won't/can't go into details about exactly why I left the company but I will say that I felt that it wasn't really my own decision to leave.  I didn't want to leave.  I loved my job and had lots of goals and plans for the company and the direction of the position I was in.  But alas, that enthusiasm and love was not shared by others.  I fought for a year to stay there.  I fought for a year to get others to see my vision.  It was a hard year in that part of my life.  I finally decided to give it up.  I still have a lot of mixed feelings about it which I am trying to work through.  Some days I am at peace and I say happily,"The Universe has other plans for me and I am excited to find out what is next!" and then there are other days where I am full of anger and spite and I want to shake certain people and yell at them.  I know God works in mysterious ways.  I have to believe that this has a purpose and that in a few years I will look back and be so grateful that it all happened this way.  Right now it is so hard to just give up my anger.  I want to for the most part but sometimes the justice loving feminist side of me just wants to keep fighting just out of vengeance  which I know is not the healthy, happy option.  There is more to say but I will say it another time.

So this last month has been a hard adjustment for me which is a whole other post but for now this is my update.

I am home full time with my 3 kids and so far it is the hardest job I have ever had.

I have had my computer off since I quit.  I have missed blogging and reading the blogs I follow but struggled to find the time.  I have finally caught up on my reading so I figured it was time to post again. I am so happy to do it.  I felt a little lost.  Like I had given up too much but just because I quit my job doesn't mean I quit my life.  I am desperately struggling to find balance in this knew life I have and I think getting back to things I enjoy is a very important step.

Hopefully there are still people out there who read this thing.

Love to you.

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Repost- Diamonds are Bullshit

Clint is in the diamond business.  I have known that diamonds are bullshit thanks to Clint for a while but this article puts all the information in one place for you just so you can have all the information you need on the matter.
Diamonds are Bullshit

I hope you read it.  It is very informative.

I would sell my diamond ring but it isn't actually worth much.

It sucks to get older and wiser and realize the only reason you did anything was because everyone else was doing it, because people told you to, you bought into an advertising ploy or/and so you wouldn't be judged negatively.

It seems pretty much everything in this world is driven by money.  Boo.

Thursday, July 25, 2013

I wish...

I wish more people read my blog only for the reason that when I want to share amazing things like this it would reach more people.
In June I participated in a 5K called Millie's Princess Run.  I came across it while I was looking for a 5K in my area.  I knew I wanted to do it when I saw the name but then I read why the race is held and I made a promise to myself that I would be back every year to run it.
Go here to read about the run (Scroll down to the bottom of the page linked to read about Millie.)
I brought my girls with me and they dressed up like princesses.  I wanted them to see me running this 5K and why all of those princess runners were there.  It was a great race.  Millie's parents are amazing.  Millie had just passed away less then 2 weeks before the race.  I was so inspired and continue to be inspired by Millie and her family.
You can support a great cause and get a very cute outfit for a sweet little girl in your life and when your sweet girl wears it  you can be grateful that you have her to hold in your arms.  So go here and buy it!

Please read about Millie and share her story!

Love to you.

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

My brother's blog.

My brother is amazing and started a blog.
He lives in Guatemala and his blog is about exposing the social injustice of Latin America through pictures.
He is a great photographer and I would love it if you would check it out and follow his adventures.  He has only posted a few times but already I have cried at just the sight of his pictures.  He is so amazing and I am lucky to have him in my life.

I am definitely inspired.

Thanks Mike.

Love to you.

Monday, July 22, 2013

Running like crazy.

In all aspects of my life I feel like I am running around like crazy but I am also literally running like crazy or trying to.  I am training for the big St. George Marathon where I am racing my friend but I have also decided to run a marathon before it to see how I am doing.  It is hard to train with 3 kids while working and doing everything else I need to do but I am doing it.  It is easiest to run in the morning but that requires me to wake up really early which can be very hard.  I started using the running app Strava and I highly recommend it.  It actually gets me motivated to get out there and run and also put forth my very best effort.  They have created a way to make your running competitive and I love it.  I am all for a little friendly competition if you haven't noticed.  If any of you are runners or bicyclists (Strava does bicycling and walking as well.) then sign up for Strava and lets follow each other and help keep each other motivated.  I am yet to be King of the Hill (or is it mountain?) on something but I am working on it.

Some of you might think "If you are so busy why would you add run a marathon to your list?" and I say I do love to run but I needed something to motivate me.  I was in the worst shape of my life before I started training and I needed to get something to force me to get moving.  It is hard to stay motivated to exercise when there are so many other things that need my attention but I think keeping myself healthy should be very close to the top of my "to-do" list and training for a marathon ensures that it stays close to the top.  Also, I think it is really important for my  kids to see me taking care of myself and exercising.  I want them to know how important it is so they will take care of themselves too and it will be natural for them to do so.  Some of you might think that running a marathon is not healthy to that I say whatever, our opinions differ.

On the subject of balancing the rest of my life that is for a different post.


Friday, July 5, 2013

Back from vacation and I hate T Mobile .

My vacation was so great.  The only reason I am back is because I missed my kids.  I probably would have stayed on St. Thomas had they been with me.  The weather was perfect, the beaches were perfect and having real beach hair was so great.

Mostly we sat on a beach and swam in the ocean which was all that I wanted to do.  I didn't really have access to my phone while on the island because I have T Mobile and they really do stink.  Their commercials are deceiving.  They have such great pricing because they have such bad coverage.  They last 2 places I have traveled I have had horrible coverage.  Do you ever want to travel to the east coast?  Well leave your phone home if you have T Mobile.  Everyone else I was with had full access to everything their phone had to offer and I did not.  Now that I think about it maybe it was a good thing but it was still really frustrating.  I couldn't check emails, instagram, facebook, google+, blogs but the real thing that bugged me is that I couldn't use the navigation feature which is nice when you are visiting somewhere new.

Anyways, when I got back it took a while to get back using my phone.  I am definitely on my phone less since getting back which has made me contemplate ditching T Mobile and taking a break from having a phone for a couple months.  Mainly because I would have to pay a fee to get rid of T Mobile and I would need to make up the cost.  Oh, and also to experience all the balance it would bring blah, blah, my life is so perfect and I am so at one with the earth blah, blah.

 St. Thomas has a lot of pirate history.  It was fun to visit some historic sites.  We came across this plaque about Jack Sparrow.  Can you find the Freudian slip?

Or maybe that was his real life's ambition.  If it was his ambition then legend says he did achieve it.

Friday, June 7, 2013

Real vacationing happening and introducing you to amashzing.

I am going on vacation.
A real vacation which means no kids.
Not even Merrill.


We are going to St. Thomas where I am literally sitting on a beach the whole time.  If it rains at all I might have to get a massage or pedicure.
I might play some tennis since I signed up for a tennis tournament for next Saturday and haven't actually played tennis in years but I love it and it is for beginners but I digress.

I am going on vacation.
I am going to smell like the actual beach!
I am sleeping through the night.
I am waking up whenever I want.
I am sitting down for a meal.
I will not be running around frantically in the mornings trying to get out the door.

Well, at least for a week.

Since I will be sitting around I will probably have lots of deep thoughts and amashzing* ideas which I might share if I can find the time.

See ya.

*amashzing is pronounced 'uh-may-sh-zing' and is even more then amazing it is reserved for something so spectacular you almost have no words to describe it but then there is and it is amashzing!
I will have to share the story of how I discovered the word amashzing one day.  It is funny.

Wednesday, May 29, 2013


Sometimes life is really hard,
Sometimes things don't go "your way",
Sometimes things are unbearable and giving up seems like the better option.
Most of the time things are good.
Most of the time there is love, caring and happiness.
Most of the time I am grateful.

Let go of the negativity even if for some reason it is easier to hold on to, easier to understand, easier to feel comfortable in.  Is it attention getting, does it get you what you want?  Maybe sometimes but most of the time it is alienating, maddening and tiresome.

You can be happy, you can feel good.  Positivity attracts positivity, love, happiness.

Let go of your heavy load and welcome in the sunshine.  Let go of the control you think you have or want.  Things will never be perfect.  The "I wills when this happens.." will never be.  What makes others happy will not make you happy so let that go and embrace yourself.  Here and now is your time to be happy so be it!

You can make those tough decisions.  You can change your life!

(Somethings I am saying to myself today and I thought they might help someone out there in the world.)


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