Friday, March 9, 2012
Holy cow I'm pregnant! And other things.
Sometimes I have moments where suddenly my reality will hit me really hard and the actuality of my situation will encompass me. I will look down at my protruding belly and say,"Holy cow I am pregnant!" It is still hard for me to wrap my brain around. I don't know if most of the time I have been on auto pilot or my brain is self protecting itself by keeping it full of happy pregnancy hormones. This pregnancy has been extremely easy. I didn't really feel pregnant until I was about 20 weeks pregnant. Suddenly at 24 weeks I felt really, really pregnant and discovered the reason was that I had gained 10lbs in 4 weeks. Goodness me!
What I feel the most in my life right now is the presence of time. It seems so heavy lately. The seconds ticking down to the birth of my baby boy, my girls growing so fast, the amount of seconds away from my kids working, the time ahead of me that I have to work to be successful enough to stay home. Time is heavy, slow, fast and doesn't care about your situation.
I am excited about my future, don't get me wrong, but I have anxiety about it still. I think I am just psyching myself out because I want some things so badly.
So, anyways, I am working hard and trying to move ahead in a positive direction.
Is anyone in my same boat? Is anyone looking for a good opportunity to build a business from home? I am looking for people to work with and I would love to talk to you about it if you are. I am really excited about it and really feel like it is a good opportunity for success. It can be a side business that turns big or just stay a side business, whatever you want it to be. I would just love to share what I have found and trying to explain it over my blog probably won't work well.
The most interesting thing about starting my own business is that I feel very empowered yet vulnerable at the same time. I get really excited and then really scared in the same instant. It's just odd.
Just a comment about the picture above. It was taken a couple months ago and as you can see we are headed to Costco. Is Costco your place to get out of the house and walk around during the winter months? Maybe I will see you there. The girls love the carts because they can sit next to each other. I love that I can feed them lunch or dinner with all the samples. Did you know I needed a place to walk around while I was in labor with Scarlett so we went to Costco? Well I did and it worked great. Eva and Clint ate samples and ran around and I stopped and leaned on the cart occasionally. I also love Target of course but seem to spend more money there on unnecessary things.