Monday, November 4, 2013
Seriously. It is a treat to be able to flush the toilet. It is so fun! I didn't realize it until I started getting in trouble every day for accidentally flushing the toilet for Scarlett.
It's the simple things.
Happy November everyone. It is the month that reminds us to be thankful so I hope that flushing the toilet is on your list. More than the fun of it plumbing is pretty great.
I was sad to see October go but November has a great feeling all it's own.
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
I quit my job at the beginning of September. I am not a working mom anymore. I worked for my father-in-laws company. This last year at work has been really hard without him. I won't/can't go into details about exactly why I left the company but I will say that I felt that it wasn't really my own decision to leave. I didn't want to leave. I loved my job and had lots of goals and plans for the company and the direction of the position I was in. But alas, that enthusiasm and love was not shared by others. I fought for a year to stay there. I fought for a year to get others to see my vision. It was a hard year in that part of my life. I finally decided to give it up. I still have a lot of mixed feelings about it which I am trying to work through. Some days I am at peace and I say happily,"The Universe has other plans for me and I am excited to find out what is next!" and then there are other days where I am full of anger and spite and I want to shake certain people and yell at them. I know God works in mysterious ways. I have to believe that this has a purpose and that in a few years I will look back and be so grateful that it all happened this way. Right now it is so hard to just give up my anger. I want to for the most part but sometimes the justice loving feminist side of me just wants to keep fighting just out of vengeance which I know is not the healthy, happy option. There is more to say but I will say it another time.
So this last month has been a hard adjustment for me which is a whole other post but for now this is my update.
I am home full time with my 3 kids and so far it is the hardest job I have ever had.
I have had my computer off since I quit. I have missed blogging and reading the blogs I follow but struggled to find the time. I have finally caught up on my reading so I figured it was time to post again. I am so happy to do it. I felt a little lost. Like I had given up too much but just because I quit my job doesn't mean I quit my life. I am desperately struggling to find balance in this knew life I have and I think getting back to things I enjoy is a very important step.
Hopefully there are still people out there who read this thing.
Love to you.
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
Diamonds are Bullshit
I hope you read it. It is very informative.
I would sell my diamond ring but it isn't actually worth much.
It sucks to get older and wiser and realize the only reason you did anything was because everyone else was doing it, because people told you to, you bought into an advertising ploy or/and so you wouldn't be judged negatively.
It seems pretty much everything in this world is driven by money. Boo.
Thursday, July 25, 2013
In June I participated in a 5K called Millie's Princess Run. I came across it while I was looking for a 5K in my area. I knew I wanted to do it when I saw the name but then I read why the race is held and I made a promise to myself that I would be back every year to run it.
Go here to read about the run (Scroll down to the bottom of the page linked to read about Millie.)
I brought my girls with me and they dressed up like princesses. I wanted them to see me running this 5K and why all of those princess runners were there. It was a great race. Millie's parents are amazing. Millie had just passed away less then 2 weeks before the race. I was so inspired and continue to be inspired by Millie and her family.
You can support a great cause and get a very cute outfit for a sweet little girl in your life and when your sweet girl wears it you can be grateful that you have her to hold in your arms. So go here and buy it!
Please read about Millie and share her story!
Love to you.
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
He lives in Guatemala and his blog is about exposing the social injustice of Latin America through pictures.
He is a great photographer and I would love it if you would check it out and follow his adventures. He has only posted a few times but already I have cried at just the sight of his pictures. He is so amazing and I am lucky to have him in my life.
I am definitely inspired.
Love to you.
Monday, July 22, 2013
Some of you might think "If you are so busy why would you add run a marathon to your list?" and I say I do love to run but I needed something to motivate me. I was in the worst shape of my life before I started training and I needed to get something to force me to get moving. It is hard to stay motivated to exercise when there are so many other things that need my attention but I think keeping myself healthy should be very close to the top of my "to-do" list and training for a marathon ensures that it stays close to the top. Also, I think it is really important for my kids to see me taking care of myself and exercising. I want them to know how important it is so they will take care of themselves too and it will be natural for them to do so. Some of you might think that running a marathon is not healthy to that I say whatever, our opinions differ.
On the subject of balancing the rest of my life that is for a different post.
Friday, July 5, 2013
My vacation was so great. The only reason I am back is because I missed my kids. I probably would have stayed on St. Thomas had they been with me. The weather was perfect, the beaches were perfect and having real beach hair was so great.
Mostly we sat on a beach and swam in the ocean which was all that I wanted to do. I didn't really have access to my phone while on the island because I have T Mobile and they really do stink. Their commercials are deceiving. They have such great pricing because they have such bad coverage. They last 2 places I have traveled I have had horrible coverage. Do you ever want to travel to the east coast? Well leave your phone home if you have T Mobile. Everyone else I was with had full access to everything their phone had to offer and I did not. Now that I think about it maybe it was a good thing but it was still really frustrating. I couldn't check emails, instagram, facebook, google+, blogs but the real thing that bugged me is that I couldn't use the navigation feature which is nice when you are visiting somewhere new.
Anyways, when I got back it took a while to get back using my phone. I am definitely on my phone less since getting back which has made me contemplate ditching T Mobile and taking a break from having a phone for a couple months. Mainly because I would have to pay a fee to get rid of T Mobile and I would need to make up the cost. Oh, and also to experience all the balance it would bring blah, blah, my life is so perfect and I am so at one with the earth blah, blah.
Or maybe that was his real life's ambition. If it was his ambition then legend says he did achieve it.
Friday, June 7, 2013
A real vacation which means no kids.
Not even Merrill.
We are going to St. Thomas where I am literally sitting on a beach the whole time. If it rains at all I might have to get a massage or pedicure.
I might play some tennis since I signed up for a tennis tournament for next Saturday and haven't actually played tennis in years but I love it and it is for beginners but I digress.
I am going on vacation.
I am going to smell like the actual beach!
I am sleeping through the night.
I am waking up whenever I want.
I am sitting down for a meal.
I will not be running around frantically in the mornings trying to get out the door.
Well, at least for a week.
Since I will be sitting around I will probably have lots of deep thoughts and amashzing* ideas which I might share if I can find the time.
*amashzing is pronounced 'uh-may-sh-zing' and is even more then amazing it is reserved for something so spectacular you almost have no words to describe it but then there is and it is amashzing!
I will have to share the story of how I discovered the word amashzing one day. It is funny.
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Sometimes life is really hard,
Sometimes things don't go "your way",
Sometimes things are unbearable and giving up seems like the better option.
Most of the time things are good.
Most of the time there is love, caring and happiness.
Most of the time I am grateful.
Let go of the negativity even if for some reason it is easier to hold on to, easier to understand, easier to feel comfortable in. Is it attention getting, does it get you what you want? Maybe sometimes but most of the time it is alienating, maddening and tiresome.
You can be happy, you can feel good. Positivity attracts positivity, love, happiness.
Let go of your heavy load and welcome in the sunshine. Let go of the control you think you have or want. Things will never be perfect. The "I wills when this happens.." will never be. What makes others happy will not make you happy so let that go and embrace yourself. Here and now is your time to be happy so be it!
You can make those tough decisions. You can change your life!
(Somethings I am saying to myself today and I thought they might help someone out there in the world.)
Thursday, May 23, 2013
My friend Teresa sent me this article about the best and worst sunscreens. It is very informative and since I know you want to put the best possible sunscreens on your family you should read it. It also has some interesting facts about spray sunscreens.
Shopping guide to find the best and worst sunscreens.
Here is another great article you should check out too:
Nine toxins to avoid in personal care products
And if you want to see if any of the products you are currently using are toxic you must put this website in your bookmarks.
Skin Deep Cosmetics Database
You can search any product or any ingredient to find out if it is toxic, how toxic and exactly how your body reacts to it.
For example Retinyl Palmitate (vitamin A) causes cancer with very low doses and gets worse with sun exposure. It is in a lot of things so start looking at your ingredients.
Don't get overwhelmed with this information. It is very easy now to get toxic free products and pretty much every store has options for you. Even Walmart.
Start out this summer with getting a toxic free sunscreen and bug repellent. Do your voting and the checkout counter where your voice is the loudest. Show companies what you support and what you will allow on/in your body because yes, everything you put on top of your body gets in your body.
Thank goodness for summer!
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
I am pretty competitive but the good kind where I am a good loser and can be happy for the winner but I really, really like winning too.
So I was at dinner with some friends we started talking about the St. George, Utah marathon and how the registration was almost closed and before you know it I challenged my friend to a race if we got into the marathon. What!!!???? As if I wasn't busy enough!
We have had similar marathon times but seriously there are lots of reasons why I am the underdog and here and they are:
1. My friend is a male.
2. He has already been training for a marathon which he is running this weekend.
3. I haven't ran in 2 years.
4. Did I mention I haven't ran in 2 years yet?
5. Did I mention he is running one this weekend?
So now I have to switch gears from super lazy person to super training athlete and watch everything I put into my body and actually start running.
I won't lie, St. George is a lottery marathon, so I was secretly hoping we wouldn't get in.
I have two options:
1. To take this seriously and have a ton of fun and kick his a#*. (It would be so awesome.)
2. Do my typical pathetic training where I take off the next few months and by September (the race is in October) quickly start to run and then at least finish the marathon.
I am going for option 1. Wish me luck. Everybody loves the underdog right?
Training starts today.
Monday, May 13, 2013
Yesterday was Mother’s Day. It was a busy day for me but a nice day. Last Mother’s Day I was pregnant with Merrill Dee and I kept thinking about last year and what happened and how grateful I am for the way things happened.
I am so grateful for him. I am so grateful to be a mother. It seemed like it took so long for me to get to be a mom and now I see I am a much better mom in my 30’s then I would have been in my 20’s. I had things to learn and experience before I could have the honor of motherhood and I understand that now. I have had to say a lot of apology prayers in my life already. Jeez!
Here is last year's Mother's Day post.
Love to you!
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
|Picture credit to www.flowerbeauty.com|
Color Play Creme Shadow: This is a nice creme shadow. It has a great texture and is easy to apply. I will love it for summer and it would work well as a shadow base too. Creme shadows just don't wear very well and you can't wear eyeliner with them because they suck it up so just an FYI about creme shadows they all wear like that. But it still looked nice and wore well throughout the day without creasing I just wish I didn't wear eyeliner with it.
|Picture credit to www.flowerbeauty.com|
Thursday, May 2, 2013
I got my hair done and I love it. It has been a while since I had a professional do my hair so I am feeling extra pampered and lucky. I love my hair stylist so if anyone is in Salt Lake and needs a good one let me know. I went in and basically told her I wanted something low maintenance and something that would last until October. She gave me the perfect sunkissed, beach hair of my dreams. Did you know I love beach hair? I love it! I am a sucker for all salt sprays and anything that claims to be "beachy" or smell like the beach. I wish my hair was mermaid wavy but I have stick straight hair, fine hair with no body so the salt sprays add the thickness that I love.
Here are my self portraits:
Monday, April 29, 2013
Please check it out.
I realize ignorance is bliss but when it comes to your health and your families health purposfully staying ignorant so that you can enjoy your diet soda or favorite potato chip is just silly.
Atleast know what is out there so that when you eat a beaver's anal gland you know that's what you are eating.
I swear this blog isn't turing into a crazy hippy blog but the word needs to be spread so educate yourself. Please!
Thursday, April 25, 2013
|Just to pull at your heartstrings a little.|
Sorry I couln't find photo credit.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
I am becoming vegan. It is something I decided to do a couple months ago but now that I look back I have probably been becoming vegan for a while I just finally realized it. I used to be very ignorant on the topic and was very critical of people who were vegan. After watching a few documentaries, reading some books and doing research online I have decided it is the best decision for me and my family. (Clint was apart of the decision as well so when I say "I" I mean "We".) It will be a slow transition and as long as we have chickens we will always eat our eggs. We don't eat a lot of eggs anyways and since I know our chickens are treated really well and that they are fed really well I feel fine about it.
Some of my misconceptions about vegans:
If you are Vegan you have to be like "Straight Edgers". This is what the kids in high school were called who were vegans, didn't wear leather or use any animal products, and broke into mink farms over the weekend to set the mink free. They also did a lot of skate boarding.
That Vegan's stink or have an odd odor because they are so unhealthy because people need meat and dairy to be healthy. (This is very untrue and a very ignorant thing to believe. I apologize to all the people I judged in my thoughts.)
That Vegan's were only vegans because they supported animal rights and that was the only reason.
All of my misconceptions were based on random comments I would hear from other people and close mindedness on my part. I have learned a lot in the past few years about food and health and how you actually are what you eat. I never thought that spirituality and food were connected but since I read the book Women, Food and God I was introduced to the idea that what we eat and the way we treat our bodies is directly related to our relationship with God and spirituality. Immediately that idea felt right to me and I have found it to be true and read other books on the topic. Since making changes to the way I eat and showing respect to my body by nourishing it with good, whole, healthy foods I feel happier, more peaceful, balanced and overall just better which translates into me having more patience, being kinder to myself and others, being more open and being more aware and sensitive to people and feelings.
Did you know there are three good reasons to becoming a vegan? They are:
You will be really, really healthy if you eat a balanced, diverse, whole food, plant based diet.
You will help the environment. I have read that you will do more for the environment by becoming a vegan than owning a hybrid car.
You will help stop animal cruelty and horrible mass animal farms.
You just need to pick one of these reasons to become a vegan but will have a bigger effect then you think.
The main thing I hear people ask me is where will you get your protein. When I hear this it is obvious that people just don't know a lot about food. Have you ever heard of nuts, legumes, quinoa? They are packed with lots of protein and that is just naming a few.. Plus there are vegan protein bars, powders, etc just to be safe if you really are worried the protein thing. BTW vegan protein bars and powders are just full of nuts, legumes, quinoa, etc.
Another thing I hear is,"What about the vitamin B12?" I just take a supplement to be safe. No biggie.
And the most frustrating thing I hear is,"Where will you get your calcium?" This is so frustrating because this all stems from the amazing advertising campaign by the Dairy Association. You get so much calcium from vegetables and it is much more absorbable than cow's milk calcium. So you can rest easy on that idea.
If a person is vegan and they are unhealthy it is because they are not eating healthy not because they are vegan. There are lots of processed, sugary snacks that are vegan.
I will stop for now and write more on the topic later but this is what I am doing now. I am definitely not perfect and if I go to someones home who has made me and my family a meal I don't refuse meat. I am also a sucker for sushi and chocolate but this is a transition and I can't completely change over night. If you know about the cows we raised you know I have a lot of organic beef I need to do something with. We will most likely slowly eat it.
Becoming a vegan has been pretty great. I feel amazing and before you judge it as a crazy, extreme thing you should try it and see. Just give it a couple weeks and you may not want to go back because you will feel so good! Plus, don't worry, I used to be one of the judgers so I know how people are viewing me.
Here are some links if you want more information about veganism and if you have Netflix there are lots of documentaries available to you on the subject. I recommend Forks Over Knives and Food Inc. to get you started. I have heard that Vegucated is very good but very hard to watch because of the graphic images of animal cruelty. I haven't gotten up the courage to watch it yet.
Monday, April 22, 2013
Sometimes I am an idiot mother and I don't listen to my inner mother instincts. It is 1 a.m. and I am watching Cupcake Wars. It would probably make more sense to just go to bed but I have more patience if I am not woken up over and over but just stay up. I will probably go to bed soon but I have some sleepless hours ahead of me. Merrill's two ear infections are ever present and were not phased by the amoxicillin that he had been taking for 8 days. I had a feeling it wasn't working on Tuesday but didn't listen to myself and talked myself out of going until Saturday when his fever started. As soon as we stepped into the doctor's office he started projectile vomiting. Poor bug. Apparently his ears looked horrible with puss and he was so exhausted he could hardly hold his head up. We opted for a shot of antibiotics this time and I was told that amoxicillin isn't working as well since it is prescribed so much and the viruses are getting stronger. I have no idea if that is true but it sounds about right. Laying flat on his back causes too much pressure on his ears so he is laying propped on a pillow and waking up every hour or two very unhappy.
The other way I was an idiot is that I let Scarlett eat ice cream tonight. What???? I am the biggest idiot. She also had cheese and butter but i think it was the ice cream that did her in. She keeps waking up and crying and we are just waiting for her to puke it all up. Poor sweet Scarlett it is all my fault. Sometimes I just think that since it has been so long since she has had any problems that she can handle it but she never can. It is also so hard to go to other people's homes to eat because they have prepared a meal and slathered everything in cheese in butter so then what?
So I have two sick kids who I could have helped but I am an idiot.
|Another occasion when we fed Scarlett ice cream. She is so cute.|
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
We are sitting on the couch watching Hotel Transylvania. It is noon and I just get to do whatever. It is so great! Sometimes people think I choose to work over staying home with my kids. I would so much rather be home with my kids and I am working on making that happen. I have been working on it for a while and trying new things to make it happen but I think it is finally in my near future.
I am so lucky to have a great job that is flexible with my schedule and that has made it harder to leave because I do like my job but I feel like it consumes my life and I would rather have other things consuming my life.
Saturday, April 13, 2013
|Serious this is the best!|
Thursday, April 11, 2013
I love Chrome, Gmail, Blogger, etc.
So I used Google Reader to keep track of all the blogs and websites I read.
Sadly Google is cancelling Reader and at first I was mad but now I'm not because I found Feedly and it is way better than Reader (sorry Google).
Check it out if you need a way to keep track of all the sites you love to read and Feedly can be used on your droid or apple phone. I love both the website and the phone interface. Plus, it communicates with Reader so you can just transfer everything over. Thank you!
The only thing I can't get into with Google is Google+ but then I don't really participate on Facebook either. I also think Facebook has gone downhill since all of the ads. It is so messy now.
And no this post is not sponsered by Feedly but thanks for thinking that my blog is big enough for Feedly to care what I thought.
P.S. I need a pedicure pretty bad.
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Saturday, April 6, 2013
I am sick. I haven't been this sick in a while. Sore throat, body aches, really cold and then really hot. It sucks. I have literally been laying on my couch for the last two days watching TV. I am getting really bored which I am taking as a sign I am getting better.
I have watched A LOT of TV:
Cup Cake Wars
Lots of Dora
Just to name a few.
Thank goodness for on demand and netflix.
My hair is also pretty sick since the last thing I want to do is have cold wet hair touching my body.
Because you care. Love.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
P.S. How does one make one's blog cute? I have forgotten or did I ever know.